Author Archives: Banana

A Little Bit Extra

She is like a lynx stretching next to me- supple, taut, and smooth. After calm deliberate movements she sits poised in preparation for the hunt- her big push outward. I, on the other hand, feel a tad chilly and also tired.  I am a little early for my second ever TRX class and I mentally […]

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Don’t Fear the Chaos Climax and Other Thoughts on Change

 Everything you tolerate drains your energy, makes you irritable, and wears you down. Talene Miedaner   Is this true? Is Talene correct? Does everything around you that you just “tolerate” drain you? Bring you down, and suck your energy? I am talking about the little things. That broken door jamb. The light hanging from a […]

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Monday Lovely Monday

Monday is my “day off.”  My husband who really does have the day off takes my daughter out for an adventure.  I have no responsibilities except all the millions of responsibilities of the house which clamor and plead trying to convince me to pay them their due. The bathroom sink is dirty.  There are piles […]

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Why Do You Even Bother?

“Why do you even bother,” I hear her say to my husband as I walk back into the room.  Internally, I let out an exasperated sigh and since my Mother in Law is not facing me I give my husband a look that says at once, “Seriously? What the F- and I love you.” Why […]

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Writing into the Glorious Grey

Something about reading that book made me go out and get a job.  Around four months earlier I had dropped out of high school in a state of depression.  Yes, real depression.  Not your typical moody teenage angst but straight up deadening, lackluster, hopeless depression. At sixteen I had realized a few things- 1) I […]

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The Selfless Gift of a Simple Name

“Anne Shirley,” reluctantly faltered forth the owner of that name, “but, oh, please do call me Cordelia……. Anne is such an unromantic name.” “Unromantic fiddlesticks!” said the unsympathetic Marilla. “Anne is a real good plain sensible name. You’ve no need to be ashamed of it.” –L.M. Montgomery Anne of Green Gables Words can make you […]

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Don’t Speak Until You Are Spoken To

I am eight.  Adults live in a separate world from me.  I look up to them and I fear them. I do not speak to a group of adults unless someone has spoken to me first. I stand next to my mother who is sitting at the table with my Aunts and Uncles and I […]

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My Descent into “Mom Jeans”

  Those are my jeans.  True- classic mom jeans they are not.  They are not two sizes too big or stone-washed but I wear them almost every single day and therefore- they might as well be.  Also, they have holes growing in the inner thighs.  Given the holes, it is unlikely that any of those […]

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How do you change? Start somewhere

  How do you change?  Start somewhere…. Start somewhere.  Start here.  Here at this table which is the perfect size but is covered in hideous laminate. Start here- in this unfinished house that I willed into being, but needs so much work that I rarely- if ever- invite anyone in. Start somewhere.  Start here- in […]

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