Oh- Hello

Thank you for checking out my blog!

A little about me- I live in an old row house, that needs a lot of work, in an east coast city with my musician / bar owner husband and my little girl.   Like a lot of people, I am a jangle of contradictions- part cynic, part doubter, part believer in magic and the power of love.

I was a teenage “space case” and “party girl” who ate books- lots of them. Now I am a 41 year old stay-at- home mom.  I love my husband and my daughter and I miss binge reading.   Occasionally, I miss the irresponsibility of my youth- but mostly I wish I hadn’t let my fears, laziness, perfectionism and anxiety hold me back so much.  I have gone all-out for certain very important things, but overall- I have made too many choices by not making choices.  I have spent a lot of time thinking and dreaming but not doing.

I want a lot and I am finally ready to admit it.  A huge part of me suddenly feels very nervous and guilty for expressing that fact.  This blog is about my attempts to step off the sidelines and into the ring.  I may get battered, I may fall down but I am determined to not back down.  Maybe a few laughs and tears will fall along the way…..

Areas of future transformation include: becoming a better writer, getting strong and physically fit, making money and other financial aspirations, rediscovering my personal style, letting go of unnecessary shame and embracing my desires, being a better friend, getting organized.  And that is just for starters.  Can a person change so much about themselves and preferably in a short amount of time?  I don’t know but I am going to try.

“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.”
Theodore Roosevelt